S.B. Simple to Be

Today is the day me and bandmates going for our roadtrip. and.... KC is most probably gonna put aeroplane to our trip!!! I am also rushing to submit some documents before i go off for my holidays. but i just cant get my mind off this trip thing also! yet... the weirdness of no one acknowledging makes me feel weird. so i just want to make sure and started asking again. true enough!!!! sooo MANY CHANGES!! why the information dont flow??? if someone tells you that jiahui might not be in the first group or something. why never inform another person? why must wait until i ask again this morning then you tell me that jiahui told you last night that she not going to be going in so early. what if i dont ask??? am i going to wait like a FOOL at kranji then call and realize that.. oh.. jiahui is not meeting us at this time. i even made yinxuan stay back after his work so that he can help me fetch people in because the group is quite big. alright nevermind. its ok. its alright. i'm FINE. rega

on another note, MERRY CHRISTMAS! altho a christmas day, but i am feeling miserable so far. hope for a better evening after this. i miss diving gang but i did a lousy job with the organising part. i'm too miserable to think about all these now. pls.. go away... SINUS BUG!!!! GO!! =( moodless.... miserable...

SOOOOO MISERABLE... It has been a long time my "friend" is here to visit me again. Ever since last night when i slept on the Sofa, the friend has been back. I didnt sleep that well. SOO tired!! Running nose like water tap which i cannot turn off. Really like Running Water Tap because when i stand up right, the "water" just flows from the nose. Till now, i cannot turn it off. Brought mum and erjie to brekky. then we went to Jusco to grab some stuffs for the dinner tonight at Chua's place. sooooooo tired from the sinus attack i wanna DIE! soooooooooooo hate. today is really a serious one that i dun think i can carry on the the orphanage which we intended to drop some stuffs this afternoon. we are back at home now due to my request. i feeeel so bad i wanna cry.. cry baby.. i feeel soooo miserable.. 我要死了。 谁能来拯救我。 我一点都不好！ 好惨！

男人真的不知道 女人又为何要口是心非 ********** 今天是冬至。 心情是很想要好， 可是家里却一点都不简单。 一个像小孩的mummy， 让我们都很为难。 今天， 她竟然要我下了班， 从JB到家， 然后接了她， 再从家里去婆婆家。 为什么这么故意。 只是简单的一顿饭。 为什么要故意迟到。 又让我麻烦。 是可以避免的！ 有时，我真不知道让她和大舅重逢是件好事或坏事。 总之，现在，简简单单的东西在妈妈的眼里都会变得非常复杂。 我们也什么都不能说。 现在我，只有安静的听。 我非常喜欢这种节日。 可是今天， 我却带着有点害怕， 有点不耐烦， 有点累， 的心情看待今天晚上的晚餐。 我心情有点忐忑不安。 我，只想开开心心的去婆婆家， 见见几个月没见到的亲戚， 大家一起吃汤圆。 我突然有点绝望。 累。

Korea is snowing. Happy for the group that went to Korea. It sure is fun and pretty and nice. I missed all these because of the sins i committed. I only have myself to blame for. ***** Is this why pimples are infecting my face? Did i do anything bad recently? I am so depressed seeing those reddish patches and huge pimples developing. yet, i have 3 parties this weekend. what a way to celebrate my christmas this year. =(

Off... Offf... offfff.... Off they went. JH, PY, Dennis & Joelly. Sent them off last night at the airport. They were upgraded free to Business Class from Singapore to Hong Kong. What a pleasant start to their hectic holiday to Korea, then Taipei. So nice... to be travelling.. going to Korea/Taipei in that cooling weather is fantabulous. Of course, i was not able to go because of my own BAD. ENVIOUS!!! I also want to wear winter clothes then walk around in boots or leggings which are really put in good use in cold places. Enjoy to the fullest my friends. Jiahui & Peiyan... you both are dearly missed. SHE without the 2 of u.. damn lonely one. Band prac is not the same too. Waiting for u both to come back to embark in our year end trip to Awanmulan. Cant wait... *smile*

Successfully completed 1st month of the challenge. =) 2nd Month from today.... JIAYOU!! SLEEP before 11.30pm!!

Thank you SO MUCH!! i guess... i cannot explain how glad i was... i cannot explain how shocked and surprised i was. To see you appearing at Kranji yesterday morning with macdonald breakfast in your hands. It was as if it was a normal and usual week day for me as i reached Kranji.. and as usual i would be waiting for transport when i reached kranji early. As usual.. i was looking at my phone and was waiting for your reply.. when i just saw you appear right infront of me.. as you could see.. i went SPEECHLESS. i really didnt know what to say. Too bad it was just a short 10 minutes there... as my transport always reach soooo early!!! You woke up early and all the efforts for just that few minutes to surprise me. Thank you... i am really thankful and i really don't know how to explain my exact feelings. you know what i mean. i've thanked you soo much.... and i still feel that it is not enough... LOL. Thanks for sending me back to JB last night too. =)

thank you for the great weekend. you were there, fetching me around. fetch here, fetch there. NO COMPLAINTS. nothing.... entertain my friends when we went to the sat wedding together. flu attack and contact lens giving u big time problem but you didnt want to spoil my fun as i mingle around with my poly mates... so you endured and tolerated. Sunday you specially drove me to Orchard for my wedding dinner. again... no complaints and only wanted me to reach py place safely. last week, u drove me to JB home to get my stuffs so that i dont have to carry thru the customs. then after the busy weekend, u had to drive my stuffs back to my jb home again. everything was planned for my convenience. despite the jam last friday and maybe the jam again tomorrow when you have to send me back again. no complains too... do i know you??? LOL. =P THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! you know how much it means when i write that in CAPS. =P

Song recommended by jh & py : 走過的路 是一陣魔術 把所有的 好的壞的 變成我的 心裡的苦 就算不記得 都化作這目光 吟唱成一首歌 而你像 流進詩裡的嘈嘈水聲 敲進我心門 擁抱了所有的恨 滋養了乾涸 相信我能是你的 彷彿還看見昨日那張悲傷的臉龐 快樂有時候竟然辣得像一記耳光 是你提醒我 別怕去幻想 想我內心躲避慣的渴望 彷彿能看見明日兩串腳印的走廊 憂傷有時候竟被你調味得像顆糖 是你抓緊我 往前去張望 望我內心夾岸群花盛放 我被寫在你的眼睛裡眨呀 你被寫在我的歌裡面唱呀 我們被寫在彼此心裡愛呀

I am amazed how you can understand me soooo well. still amazed. very amazed. thanks for enduring me or putting up with me when i was moody. in a way or another, i think you kind of cheered me up somehow. but i will remember what happened. =P (altho its kind of a small matter but... i was deeply affected cos it just matters to me!) you kept your promise.. you were there for me even though i kind of put you in a very awkward spot when i was moody and you were a bit lost didnt know what to do or what to say. but you were there. you were just there trying to make me feel better. u know i was not feeling good about something. u know what had affected me. u could have just ignored and get affected but u endured. heee.. are you the right one for me? tell me.. are you?? =P

Yearning for the beach Yearning for a trip Envy them who are going to Korea/Taipei soon. Envy those who can travel. Envy those who can travel and have plenty to spend. i can only envy..... i feel soooo stupid

today i did something silly. no.. no... should be - i did something silly last night. i went out till too late already!!! cos i cannot blame them for not letting me go. i can just leave! alright, alright, alright. i went home and in the end slept late.. like 2.30am? after KTVing with the Kulai peeps. (hahahaha..... it was quite a crowd last night) then this morning i woke up at 6.25am!!! i am suppose to leave home at 6.30am de!! by the time i left home, my car clock shows - 6.52am. arghhh! luckily it's school holidays so not much traffic on the road even tho it was raining. BUT!!! because it was raining.... there was a queue outside the parking entrance where i always parked! maybe cos it was late already also. i decided not to wait and parked my Xiaoxue by the road!!!! on a double yellow line! i rushed and rushed but as expected, i missed my transport. so i took a cab... n..... i soooo REGRET.. i should have taken MC lar!! since it is already end of the year. i still have MC!! i t

1.CONFIDENT 2.CARING 3.CHARMING 4.CHEERFUL 5.CREATIVE a guy that is not confident, you will not feel protected when you are with him a guy that is not caring, you will feel neglected a guy that is not charming, will not attract your attention a guy that is not cheerful, you will not be happy when you are with him a guy that is not creative, equals boring **from peiyan** this is sooooooo true!!!!

really hav to thank my brother for what he did he actually helped me drive my car in then he went back to JB again after THANK YOU!! (altho he wouldnt see this) he even took the wrong bus and i panic SHIT!! tomorrow, he is going to do the same thing again by coming in to get me and my car before we head back to JB together again. all this, for my convenience. its been a really long time since i've driven to work. moreover, i am driving my own car to work these few days. i really like driving to work. hahaha. perhaps because i seldom drive to work which is why i liked it soo much. =P my little helpful brother has made my life a little bit more convenient these few days and i thank him for that. he knows im thankful for that. i love him. =)

蛮适合我今天的心情。 稍有的思念。 =） ********** * * 时间告诉我们： 时间一去不返， 曾经拥有的，不要忘记； 已经得到的，更要珍惜； 属于自己的，不要放弃； 已经失去的，留着回忆； 想要得到的，必须努力； 但最重要的，是好好爱惜自己。 珍惜今天，期待明天。

那天看到你， 有一种既熟悉又陌生的感觉。 我最近过得很好吗。 你呢？ 突然，我好想知道你的近况。

So wanna get their latest album! Everybody has been talking about it and how nice it is. i shall go get it from City Square to get it!! if it is really that good then i wanna get the original one lor. LOL. Hebe's latest album i also wanna get!! Listen in my car as i drive to/fro work. =)

A Sweet Post... on Candy's wall which i patiently finished reading and had so much feelings for. . . . 你若不離，我定不棄 我可以不是你第一個喜歡的人，　　 我可以不是你第一個牽手的人，　　 我可以不是你第一個擁抱的人，　　 我可以不是你第一個親吻的人，　　 我可以不是你第一個擁有的人，　　 我可以、可以、可以不是你的種種第一。　　 我也知道我不是你這樣的第一。　　 但是, 我希望,　　 我可以是你遇到痛苦第一個想傾訴的人。　　 我可以是你遇到快樂第一個想分享的人。　　 我可以是你遇到挫折第一個想能依靠的人。　　 我可以是你今生以後第一個可以相伴的人。　　 我真的可以是你心中某一個可以第一的人。　　 所以, 請將你心裡的某個第一放心的交給我,　　 我會是將它緊緊守護的“第一個人”。 親愛的，你看到了麼？ 我只想做你的唯一、 一直陪伴你走到永遠的“第一個人” 如果我不在乎妳我不會在為你笑 如果我不在乎妳我不會變得這麼脆弱 如果我不在乎妳我不會在意你做的每件事 如果我不在乎妳我不會靜靜的想著你發呆 如果我不在乎妳我不會記住你說的每句話 如果我不在乎妳我不會要求你這樣那樣 如果我不在乎妳我不會為你心痛 如果我不在乎妳我不會把事情問出個究竟 如果我不在乎妳我不會總想著聽到你的聲音哪怕只是一句 如果我不在乎妳我不會自己一人珍惜與你在一起的時刻， 哪怕你是無所謂的如果我不在乎妳， 我不會總是不由自主的想起你如果我不在乎妳， 我不會每天都那麼堅持著我的堅持如果我不在乎妳 我不會總想著我們的語言傻傻的發笑如果我不在乎妳， 我不會這麼輕易的讓痛苦折磨自己如果我不在乎你， 我不會為了無關重要的小細節跟你爭執， 如果我不在乎妳我不會經常的胡思亂想讓自己心痛 如果我不在乎妳，我不會在我最軟弱的時候，真的支持不住地時候，對你說：“我累了，我很不開心……” 因為那時候的我，真的需要你的關心； 如果我不在乎你，我不會把我所有的事情都告訴你，哪怕是讓你覺得枯燥無味，雞毛蒜皮的小事，我不會把所有的秘密都告訴你，哪怕是最珍貴或是最不堪回首的。 你若不離，我定不棄

i am a person that falls into the "upset" mood easily. i am super sensitive. i am super assumption-girl altho i dun study at ASS. but... When i am nice, i am very nice. When i am romantic, i am super romantic. When i am Fun, i am uber fun-loving. i want my days to be happy every single day but reality doesnt allow that and plus, i am a super difficult person when it comes to the 4 letter word. i am trying to make myself simpler. ^^ hopefully

Actions speaks louder than words...

Today is a Monday. Rainy Monday with Thunderstorm that was scarily LOUD. Mood = maximum SIAN-ness... lucky... Popo just made my day. Sis whatsapp me some photos - Popo sent our dinner to MeiMei at her office. There was roasted duck and fried bee hoon for us, siblings to hav for dinner. So sweet of her! We were suppose to go to her house for dinner but was cancelled. Surprisingly, she still prepared dinner for us. Yay.. no worries for dinner tonite already. Maybe... just cook a vege soup on our own to curb my soup & vege cravings. =P

真的是自己拿来受。 我自己找罪受。 自作自受！ 什么幸福不幸福的。 原来只要里面有我，就不会幸福了。 这么妙的一天，被我自己搞到什么都不不妙了。 原来我是不适合幸福的人。 好像连老天都在跟我说，我给了你好东西，也要看你会不会把握。 我发现，我不会。

what were you doing during this time?? i missed you......

“I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.” ― Audrey Hepburn on this special day, some peeps on fb were making wishes, so, today is special because of the special date? maybe someone out there (Eg. Kyle) is planning a proposal today. maybe some other couples are planning a wedding today. next yr will be 12.12.12. why is it special? is it because its just MAGICAL?? i once thought, i could get married on such a special date too. i like the numbers too. (especially i like the number - 2) but... maybe not. cos since next year will be the last year all DD/MM/YY gonna be the same numbers. i think im gonna missed it... its not such a good day for me though. this magical day of 11.11.11. is it me? is this childish? is this immature? ya.. what if t

so now when it happens to you... its a different thing already...

Yayu said i am acting like a real girl now. so sensitive to all these. KARMA u can call it too. its happening to me... gosh! i am sensitive. i am over sensitive. i assume. i make assumptions. gosh!!! i just need a bit more attention than most girls? hahahahahahahahaha... i am easy to please. but the pleasing part can be quite difficult too. good luck to YOU. =P

分手以后， 今天，听说你工作会有很好的发展。 我很为你开心。 希望你老板曾经答应你的事也会做到。 真心的希望你好。 知道你很努力很负责任。 一定会友好结果。 祝你一切都好。 我们还是朋友。=)

i feel so vulnerable sometimes.. lost... helpless... i even realise.. i am not a very good GF or lover.. am i temperamental or something?? sometimes i feel my mood changes so much... why ar??? =( maybe.. because of that... i suddenly feel i need a break... i miss diving.. but the season is out for Tioman already... wait till next year? should i go similan? go on Peter Pan. and explore the Philippine waters. look for the friendly manta rays. should i? i miss the blue blue water. the heavy tank. the beers. the friends. the freedom. the quiet in the water except for bubbles. the colours under the sea. i need these. =)

我们的一家之主有出国了 为了生活 为了我们 爸爸又背井离乡 他又出国了 去了非常远的非洲 我们又分开了 . . 有时候真的会想说，如果我能在赚多一点钱，可能爸爸就不用再奔波。 . . we call ourselves a family but actually, in total, i dont think we even spend 10 yrs together. i am referring to ME in this case. perhaps when i was young i did spend about 7 yrs together with him. then i came back to Singapore for education, alone. in order to send me and sis to Singapore for education, Daddy had to continue working in Nigeria that time to afford the hefty education fees as well as misc expenses to support us. then he came back when Ting Ting was born.. but less than a year, he found another job in Latvia. where he worked there to continue to support us again... me and sis still studying in Singapore and to bring Ting Ting as he was very young. as well as my mummy who can spend money like water but still my daddy love her and sayang her with all that he can. then when he came back from Latvia, he worked less than a year in JB trying to find something he can do that can sustain

How in the world i can forget that the stupid band room key is with me!!???? arghhh!!! SOOO TROUBLED!!! on one hand i dun wanna disappoint Yayu... on the other hand i dun wanna abandon my alumni band people.. that BLOODY KEY is with me lar!! alamak... Cant concentrate on work now...

I am looking for husband material now... Someone i can depend on... Someone i can communicate with.. Someone.. i cannot explain why i love him... Someone... that puts a smile on my face for the simplest reason... Someone... that knows me... Someone... that can take care of me... Someone.... like you.... . . are you there?? where do i find you??? i miss u lei....

婚后 , 他对她比婚前更好 一次聚会朋友笑他 : ''怎么结婚了还不腻?'' 他讪讪地笑着说 : ''结婚前很多男生都想追她, 所以很多男生会对她好. 我只有对她更好才能追到她. 结婚后对她好滴男生越來越少, 我只有对她更好才能不让她失落. 我所做滴就是想让她幸福'' 说完 , 在场滴朋友都沉默了...

Should i go?? or not go?? i dont want to be caught in a weird and awkward situation. Its toooo weird!!!

For... fried udon from Crystal Jade.. and bubble tea... so sleepy at work now!! arghh...

** guideline to make me smile.. its not too difficult isnt it? =P ** [1] tell her she is Beautiful. not hot or f...ine. [2] hold her hand at ANY moment even if it is just for a second.... [3] Kiss her on the forehead. [4] leave her voice messages to wake up to. [5] ALWAYS tell her you love her at any & and all times. [6] when she is upset, hold her tight & tell her how much she means to u. [7] recognize the small things ..they usually mean the most. [8] call her Sweetie or BABY. [9] Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is. [10] pick her over all the OTHER girls you hang out with. [11] write her notes.(she loves them) [12] introduce her to family & friends as your girlfriend. [13] play with her hair. [14] pick her up, tickle her, & play WRESTLE with her. [15] sit in the park & just TALK to her. [16] tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her joke. [17] throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because u missedher. [18] let h

** Just a little guideline i can use for future bf... not all but most of it applies for me.. hahahaha.** 1. Touch her waist. 2. Actually talk... to her. 3. Share secrets with her.... 4. Give her your jacket. 5. Kiss her slowly.Are you remembering this? 6. Hug her. 7. Hold her. 8. Laugh with her. 9. Invite her somewhere. 10. Hangout with her and your friends together. KEEP READING .. 11. Smile with her. 12. Take pictures with her. 13. Pull her onto your lap. 14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back. 15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.Are you thinking of someone? 16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her. 17. Kiss her unexpectedly. 18. Hug her from behind around the waist. 19. Tell her she’s beautiful. 20. Tell her the way you feel about her.One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it. 21. Open doors for her, walk her to

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAme9W4L77o&feature=share Super nice song. Super nice drama. Super nice - live performance. Will always be remembered as one of my favorites. =)

Life doesn’t have to be a compromise, we are all instilled with the freedom and flexibility to choose how we experience life. It's your life.....

http://www.bootsnall.com/articles/11-09/7-things-you-learn-about-yourself-while-traveling-solo.html After reading this article, i have this idea of traveling alone sometime next year. To another country alone. Korea? =) I am actually not a person that can travel solo because as me, i would love for someone to take care of me. Or for instance to cold countries or etc, i would hope to have a bf beside to take care and to hug me when i am cold. But, how would it be if i travelled alone? it would be good to discover myself more. =)

狮子是王者，所以不想让人看透自己的内心，所以只好大发脾气来掩饰自己的失望，他们的心理非常脆弱，就像玻璃造的心一样，只要受到重创，伤口就很难愈合，一旦有人触碰那个伤痛，他们马上就会摆出武器来武装自己。所以人们总是认为狮子座人以自我为中心，其实他们是非常希望能够有人好好的呵护自己的。

im sorry things have to turn out this way. im sorry if i've hurt you in anyway that i cannot imagine. im sorry for being selfish. im sorry... and sorry and sorry.. why? why do i have to consider so many things... why are human beings so complex? the existence of LOVE is even more complex than anything...

Me at Plaza Singapura when we were walking around the mall. . . in his car proceeding to dinner venue at Dempsey. =) . Dinner at this Japanese Restaurant at Dempsey. . the Wagyu Beef Teppanyaki was really gooood! . Thank you! =)

can we dun think about so many things? can we dun trouble about so many things? can we just do whatever we want to do and dont think about other people's feelings?? i know a lot of us cant.. i cannot tooo.. but sometimes i just have to. there are so many things, so many people.. to consider.. sometimes i reli hope i can heck care about other people's feelings too and just do whatever i think i will be happy with and just go on with it but.. too bad.. life doesnt allow me to do that... or actually.. i dun allow myself to do that.. no matter how bad i wan things to be like how i want it to be, it always fall the other way then we always have to find a way around it. i am also human being.. i know... when i hurt someone and i do feel bad about it too. i will get affected... still... but that is out of my control. sometimes i might get over sensitive over some things but i cant control that either. just not in the best mood today... mood-less..

i hope i can be a happy girl... i hope i can be a lucky girl... i hope i can be a loved girl... i hope i can be a cared girl... i hope i can be a spoilt girl... i hope... i hope... i hope... sometimes... i hope... i can find someone of the above calibre.

If YOU are coming one day... If i find YOU... If YOU found me... waiting... for YOU... in future.. if i ever FOUND YOU... SONG : 另一个天堂 你取代 前一秒我生命的空白 问题忽然找到答案 不用解释也明白 你的微笑是一个暗号 我们解读那段美好 梦想不到 想永远停留在这一秒 你为我的世界 重新彩绘 是你带我找到另一个天堂 远比想象中的美 我们怀抱里的这一个天堂 另一个梦想 有无限的快乐 相信你是我的另一个天堂 给的爱多么纯粹 因为你而存在这一个天堂 爱是直达的路线 因为你而存在这一个天堂 只想陪在你身边 我等待 下一刻再相遇的精彩 踢开每天越来越爱 多急就这么简单 生命转到同一个频道 因为我的幸福坐标 我多渺小 能爱着你才最重要 想把你的明天仔细翻阅 是你带我找到另一个天堂 远比想象中更美 我们怀抱里的这一个天堂 另一个梦想 有无限的快乐 相信你是我的另一个天堂 给的爱多么纯粹 因为你而存在这一个天堂 爱是直达的路线

hmmm.... i think there's something really special happening to me!!!

i am so grumpy can DIE!!!! i hate selfish friends lar!! i dun wan that FUKING Spoiler already! take my car one whole afternoon do NOTHING!! all u care is about your car first!!! arghhhhh!!

Yes... . Like my Sis, i will also dream & dream & dream how my home would be. . . a corner will be like this. where i can keep my Hello Kitty Handphone Accessories and some other cutie stuffs i bought.. in those small shelves hanging off the walls . kitchen will me this... . OR . this. . I love Grey colour concepts in my kitchen and if possible, cemented bar / island would be BEST. . =)

on SICK days like these.. i will look at stuffs that can possibly take my attention off my uncomfortable-ness. . . . . this is korean drama - MY PRINCESS. . super hearts many, many, many of her hairstyles. Simple yet nice. Neat ones are so neat and elegant. Messy ones are yet, nice also. . wanna use this as a concept for my wedding hairdo. HAHA! . yea a bit stupidity when i UNWELL. . LOL!! . HAHAHA! . =(

Fall sick le... As usual, started from SORE THROAT.. and it starts from here. Now - small cough, small nose block, small feverish. SIAN max!!! Now... i become little girl again.... =(

Jing Ying 说： 你找到了吗？ 找一个会在钱包里放你照片的男人， 敢让你咬在身上留印记的男人， 敢在facebook 写你的男人， 敢让你知道他一切的男人， 就算在你任性说分手的时候也不会抛下你， 会紧紧拥抱你不让你走的男人， 敢对你一生负责任并且好好对你的男人。 有这样的男人吗？？？ 你找到了吗？？？ ** 我找到我就嫁！** 不需要有车有房子，因为我可以买！！！ o(^_^)o

i was wondering.. how many times have i become Jiemei for a friend's wedding or etc... Let's see.... 1. Hui Ping's Wedding 2. Iephanie's Wedding 3. Yayu's Wedding 4. Ah Yong's Wedding 5. Ah Fei korkor's Wedding 6. Tee Hui Siah's Wedding 7. Teo Bei Xin's Wedding 8. Suan Ching's Wedding (Upcoming) 9. Summer's Wedding (Upcoming) I think these are all those that i can remember. If i do miss out, then i have participated as Jiemei to even more weddings than stated above. Even so, with statistics above, its considered ALOT right? i think i will be left on the shelves... tradition says.. if be Jiemei more than 5 times, then cannot get married. arghhhhh!!! Who want me??? LOL.

i am learning more about myself. i am in this process to learn more about myself. to know what i want. no matter what, i thought, this was pretty memorable for US. i hope it will still remain a memorable experience for you. it came to a point where i dont know what to expect, it came to a point where i no longer expect, it came to this point, where i know i must do something about it. many people look at US, they will start to decipher in their own thinking which of course is very natural because every single one of us in this universe looks at the same thing and yet has different kind of "thinking" or "explanation" to it. however, nobody knows... except US. Why did you only see the problem and willing to address it now? Ask yourself, did i not bring these problems up before? I.. asked myself sooo many times about what is wrong with US. I.. convinced myself again and again. when i finally made up my mind to leave this tiny, constrained r/s of ours, i was questioned.

wah.. pekcek.. how can someone/anyone do this? i mean.. what are you trying to do? you know she is my best friend right? how can you just....?? i dunno wad to say lar. speechless. in this working world, its really hard to get along with everybody. especially people like YOU!

yes yes yes!!!! i got my car already! my ride!! my own ride!! . . TOYOTA VIOS it is and her name will be Xiaoxue. hahah!! . . rushed really quickly to Kulai after work last night. met Ah Liew on the way as he waited a bit for me at the highway. then we went to his house together so that i can drop Laohei there. then Ah Yin came to pick me and Ah Liew then we went to the office to get my CAR!! . . there it is!! my car!! my RIDE!! whatever you call it.. its MINE! . . car plate is a bit unexpectedly small but was ok for me because thats what i wanted. i wanted the numbers printed. . . car seats and all still wrapped in plastic. =P . . Its MINE MINE MINE!! . . backside.. . . simply love the car plate. . . some said the numbers/letters still could be smaller but this was ok for me already. think ah liew wants something even smaller than this on his car. . . im happy with this!! . . the VIOS & E wordings were also removed. =P . . i love this picture. Ah yin did a great job! my car my

on a HAPPY note.. i am getting my XiaoXue tonight!!! yay!!! Finally my own car!! Fully paid for by myself and i hope i could still live well with such burden.. arghh.. okok.. dun think about this. Like what daddy said... "what the heck?" Things will work out just fine. =) car plate is custom made, rims & 15" tyres already fixed on the onto XiaoXue this afternoon. Should be done by now and according to Ah Xiong, she should be doing "SPA" now. will be leaving for Ipoh tomorrow evening. visiting parents as well as visiting Ipoh. this would be my last chance to do so as my dearest parents gonnna come back here to JB. Dad will be heading to Nigeria to work soon and Mummy will be back at home for at least 6 months. Once all settled and done at Nigeria, Daddy might be able to bring her over to Nigeria together as well as maybe get herself a small job at the company there. So i have to make it to Ipoh by this weekend as they are heading back next weekend. At least

today, i tidied up the stuffs i had in Laohei. tonight would be the last night with him. so many memories of Laohei & him. this was the car, we discussed and we decided to change from Xiaobai to Laohei Laohei has done well over the years. Served us well.... Served me well as i was the one using more often after i move back to JB. this one year and 3 months, i practically drive Laohei every single day because it was put under my care so that i can get to work easier. i took what i thought i should took and the rest of it, i will leave it for him. i kind of deduced what to take and what not to. some stuffs i would leave it for him because i knew he needed those and knew he liked those alot. i know i shouldnt take everything away from him. 真的真的很不舍得 不舍得老黑 这次我知道的 我知道我必须放下 明天我会把老黑还回去 希望这样对大家都好 这次是我自私了 我的快乐 我必须要自己抉择 ＊＊＊＊ 明天，拿了新车，就好像有了新的开始。 什么东西都要更认地对待。 该睡了 晚安

WE broke up... FINALLY?? of course this decision was made with a lot of thinking and thinking and thinking before i decided. i did love him... but not anymore.. things have changed and I have changed. Due to many reasons and many factors. i read my past posts and realise, there were so many times i re-think abt my relationship with him. so many times... i convinced myself to try again. but not this time.... i hope he could get over this sooner and hope he will find a great girl. ******** it has been so long since i last posted on this blog and first thing i come back.. i am talking about my break up. anyway, this blog still consists of many of our memories which i will hope to remember too. ******** hopefully.. more memorable memories could follow from here onwards... =) someone said... i went to your blog that day lei.. which reminded me.. yea i had a blog which i hasnt deleted yet... =)

it was not my fault and not his fault. he had his reasons but i just thought he could come. . . Monday was D Day i play badminton with Kulai Gang. while i was on my way back to JB, i received a call from him. told me that he is already on his way back to Masai to let his worker go off for dinner early and then somehow they could close shop early so that he can make it back to Kulai early for our badminton appointment. he said AhLiew called him earlier in the late afternoon to ask HIM to fetch me because ah liew is already back in Kulai. HE explained that since Ah Liew had to come to the JB shop any way then he thought it would be ok to let Ah Liew fetch me and "HE REALLY HAD TO MAKE HIS WAY BACK TO MASAI AND COULDNT AFFORD THE TIME TO COME DOWN AND WAIT FOR ME TILL 6.30PM THEN GO TO MASAI AFTER THAT". so in a way or another, Ah Liew asked Ah Mei to accompany him down town to fetch me. both of them came down and fetch me instead of my BF. . . i was speechless. . . while he tri

Went to the TRA training session yesterday in SG because i have 3 people that i am really grateful to. No matter what they are thinking now or what they are thinking of me or how they are looking at me.. i am grateful no matter what. They took the extra step of willing to come to the meeting and listen to what TRA is all about. TRA is "none of the bad, all of the good". by coming to the session, they could understand more on TRA as well as seeing living testimonials whom have succeeded in losing weight HEALTHILY from TRA. yes.. lose weight healthily.. which none of those out there can do. Angel, heartfelt thanks for trusting me on this. really didnt expect her to get this when i asked her out to meet Shu Ling together. Didnt expect her to sign the form that night and there she was.. my first customer as well as my first downline. I was really surprised when she told me she had signed the form. i couldnt believe it until i see the actual form myself and there, there, there...

my first ever biggest kind of MLM meeting that i had ever been to. it was very extensive and sort of out of what i could imagined on the scale of the meeting and the number of people that were attending it on that weekend. . there were about 2000 people!!! . my first picture taken when i reached the hotel. . this was taken at the lobby . this was taken later when we had a dinner break and this was the tag for me to wear so that i can enter the meeting venue. . the night events. . FUN and touching night when Nicholas was up there receiving his US$1 million circle member recognition. . he told of his story from young and how much he have gained from this business and how it not only benefit himself and also the loved ones around him. . this was how the whole business attracted me because i wanted the best for my family too. i want my father to be debt-less. no matter from house loans or study matters for my brother. but also.. at the same time.. i am still worried/scared.. i havent re