爸爸有出国了

我们的一家之主有出国了
为了生活
为了我们
爸爸又背井离乡 他又出国了
去了非常远的非洲
我们又分开了
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有时候真的会想说，如果我能在赚多一点钱，可能爸爸就不用再奔波。
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we call ourselves a family
but actually, in total, i dont think we even spend 10 yrs together.
i am referring to ME in this case.
perhaps when i was young i did spend about 7 yrs together with him.
then i came back to Singapore for education, alone.
in order to send me and sis to Singapore for education, Daddy had to continue working in Nigeria that time to afford the hefty education fees as well as misc expenses to support us.
then he came back when Ting Ting was born.. but less than a year, he found another job in Latvia.
where he worked there to continue to support us again... me and sis still studying in Singapore and to bring Ting Ting as he was very young.
as well as my mummy who can spend money like water but still my daddy love her and sayang her with all that he can.
then when he came back from Latvia, he worked less than a year in JB trying to find something he can do that can sustain the house loan and car loan but nothing in JB could... given his age too.
went to Nigeria again to work in the ex-company.
however, although it was a company he had once worked for, things have changed over the years and many things are already different. he didnt enjoy himself there so he came back after his 2 yrs contract.
so this one year in Malaysia, he managed to find a job in Ipoh to at least sustain the daily expenses for Mummy and Ting Ting's education.
(Sis and I are supporting ourselves)
he knew very well it isnt enough. it just isnt enough to use.
amazingly,
this company found Daddy's resume from Jobstreet and contacted Daddy.
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even amazingly, they decided to employ Daddy over to Nigeria.
after listening to the prospects of Dad's employment, i knew Daddy was happy with this.
~~~FINALLY!!
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i really hope this company could treat Daddy well and hope Daddy can find another satisfaction and challenge in this new company.
I really really pray very hard that everything will go smoothly for him.
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He is such a respectable father.
FOR US, i think he gave his whole life to support.
He never gave up hope.
He never said anything negative to US.
He was the one who always kept us optimistic even when things were really going bad for us.
WE thought he would settle for the easy way out but he always wanted to depend on himself.
HE showed us responsibility. - To be responsible for your own family.. no matter how hard things slap on his face, he will always be there to shoulder all the burden.
He showed us that when there's a will, there's a way.
He knows we cannot depend on anybody but ourselves.
He showed us that we cannot just hope or hope things can get better, but we have work towards what we want and WE are the ones that can make things happen for ourselves.
He showed us the wonders of being SELF-LESS.
NO matter what happened, he was the UMBRELLA sheltering all of us.
He sacrificed so much.... so much....
that I dont know how to repay him in this life.
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THANK YOU DADDY.
YOU ARE THE BEST!!
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the only thing i can do is... be this HAPPY LITTLE GIRL for him.. as i know.. he wants us to be HAPPY.
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"you will always be my little girl"... he said to me before.. ***CRY***

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i still have to say.......

"im SO SORRY for not being able to provide for u now.. but i will work towards this"