S.B. Simple to Be

i was wondering.. how many times have i become Jiemei for a friend's wedding or etc... Let's see.... 1. Hui Ping's Wedding 2. Iephanie's Wedding 3. Yayu's Wedding 4. Ah Yong's Wedding 5. Ah Fei korkor's Wedding 6. Tee Hui Siah's Wedding 7. Teo Bei Xin's Wedding 8. Suan Ching's Wedding (Upcoming) 9. Summer's Wedding (Upcoming) I think these are all those that i can remember. If i do miss out, then i have participated as Jiemei to even more weddings than stated above. Even so, with statistics above, its considered ALOT right? i think i will be left on the shelves... tradition says.. if be Jiemei more than 5 times, then cannot get married. arghhhhh!!! Who want me??? LOL.

i am learning more about myself. i am in this process to learn more about myself. to know what i want. no matter what, i thought, this was pretty memorable for US. i hope it will still remain a memorable experience for you. it came to a point where i dont know what to expect, it came to a point where i no longer expect, it came to this point, where i know i must do something about it. many people look at US, they will start to decipher in their own thinking which of course is very natural because every single one of us in this universe looks at the same thing and yet has different kind of "thinking" or "explanation" to it. however, nobody knows... except US. Why did you only see the problem and willing to address it now? Ask yourself, did i not bring these problems up before? I.. asked myself sooo many times about what is wrong with US. I.. convinced myself again and again. when i finally made up my mind to leave this tiny, constrained r/s of ours, i was questioned....

wah.. pekcek.. how can someone/anyone do this? i mean.. what are you trying to do? you know she is my best friend right? how can you just....?? i dunno wad to say lar. speechless. in this working world, its really hard to get along with everybody. especially people like YOU!

yes yes yes!!!! i got my car already! my ride!! my own ride!! . . TOYOTA VIOS it is and her name will be Xiaoxue. hahah!! . . rushed really quickly to Kulai after work last night. met Ah Liew on the way as he waited a bit for me at the highway. then we went to his house together so that i can drop Laohei there. then Ah Yin came to pick me and Ah Liew then we went to the office to get my CAR!! . . there it is!! my car!! my RIDE!! whatever you call it.. its MINE! . . car plate is a bit unexpectedly small but was ok for me because thats what i wanted. i wanted the numbers printed. . . car seats and all still wrapped in plastic. =P . . Its MINE MINE MINE!! . . backside.. . . simply love the car plate. . . some said the numbers/letters still could be smaller but this was ok for me already. think ah liew wants something even smaller than this on his car. . . im happy with this!! . . the VIOS & E wordings were also removed. =P . . i love this picture. Ah yin did a great job! my car my...

on a HAPPY note.. i am getting my XiaoXue tonight!!! yay!!! Finally my own car!! Fully paid for by myself and i hope i could still live well with such burden.. arghh.. okok.. dun think about this. Like what daddy said... "what the heck?" Things will work out just fine. =) car plate is custom made, rims & 15" tyres already fixed on the onto XiaoXue this afternoon. Should be done by now and according to Ah Xiong, she should be doing "SPA" now. will be leaving for Ipoh tomorrow evening. visiting parents as well as visiting Ipoh. this would be my last chance to do so as my dearest parents gonnna come back here to JB. Dad will be heading to Nigeria to work soon and Mummy will be back at home for at least 6 months. Once all settled and done at Nigeria, Daddy might be able to bring her over to Nigeria together as well as maybe get herself a small job at the company there. So i have to make it to Ipoh by this weekend as they are heading back next weekend. At least ...

today, i tidied up the stuffs i had in Laohei. tonight would be the last night with him. so many memories of Laohei & him. this was the car, we discussed and we decided to change from Xiaobai to Laohei Laohei has done well over the years. Served us well.... Served me well as i was the one using more often after i move back to JB. this one year and 3 months, i practically drive Laohei every single day because it was put under my care so that i can get to work easier. i took what i thought i should took and the rest of it, i will leave it for him. i kind of deduced what to take and what not to. some stuffs i would leave it for him because i knew he needed those and knew he liked those alot. i know i shouldnt take everything away from him. 真的真的很不舍得 不舍得老黑 这次我知道的 我知道我必须放下 明天我会把老黑还回去 希望这样对大家都好 这次是我自私了 我的快乐 我必须要自己抉择 ＊＊＊＊ 明天，拿了新车，就好像有了新的开始。 什么东西都要更认地对待。 该睡了 晚安

WE broke up... FINALLY?? of course this decision was made with a lot of thinking and thinking and thinking before i decided. i did love him... but not anymore.. things have changed and I have changed. Due to many reasons and many factors. i read my past posts and realise, there were so many times i re-think abt my relationship with him. so many times... i convinced myself to try again. but not this time.... i hope he could get over this sooner and hope he will find a great girl. ******** it has been so long since i last posted on this blog and first thing i come back.. i am talking about my break up. anyway, this blog still consists of many of our memories which i will hope to remember too. ******** hopefully.. more memorable memories could follow from here onwards... =) someone said... i went to your blog that day lei.. which reminded me.. yea i had a blog which i hasnt deleted yet... =)