i feel so lousy..
i am a lousy worker.. slow worker.. nobody can entrust me with their work..
its in me.. i am just not good enough..
i thought i could.. but actually i cannot!
i hate myself so much... hate myself to the core..
i should be punished to be without friends..
hate hate hate hate hate.... 很讨厌！！
最好从今以后都不要有人爱我！我一辈子孤单吧！

~i should never have looked on the bright side of life~

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